Hello and Happy Monday/Tuesday. I hope everyone’s week is off to a good start. Today, I have my Weekly Edit of the last couple of weeks. In this post, I have an MOTD with all the details as well as so deep talk. I go into love and the past. and we get all up in our feels.
So if you wanna see what I have been up to, just keep reading below.
The Makeup and Misadventures.
Tuesday, August 1st, 2017
August marked 7 years for Ross and me being together. We spoke for the first time in late June and by August our fate was sealed together. He is the light that I was missing. He is my everything.
I don’t often find words to express myself well as far as romance and love go so I tend to rely on the words of others to express my emotions.
I think all the time about how certain things had to have happened for us to have found one another. Do you believe in soulmates and past lives? I feel like we have been together before, lives and lives together. It felt so natural together when we met. I could swear I dreamed him as a child. His face was in my dreams. I knew him already when I saw him in person.
Before him, I was in such a dark ugly world. He changed everything. It was like finding a purpose and will to really Live.
Paradise Regained – Fields of the Nephilim
Come in from the cold
I’ll owe you my heart
Be my shelter and refuge for the night
Love of my life
Pour your light on the faith
I can feel
So it has rained this entire month, most the summer actually. It has been a dreary dirty black summer. I have been in kind of a weird space mentally. Not depressed at all, or having any anxiety. Just felt dark but happy in the darkness. I don’t hate it. It’s not the darkness I was in before. It’s not a sad place. It’s comfort, introspection, a melancholy peace.
Wednesday, August 2nd, 2017
I posted a review of my favorite mascara of life! You can read all about it and see how well it performs here: L’Oreal Voluminous Lash Paradise Review – Best Drugstore Mascara?!
Friday, August 4th, 2017
Speaking of darkness, I am still loving this Morticia Addams look. I think there may be a tutorial for this one coming up soon.
I also posted a review of the Jan Marini C-ESTA Serum here: Skincare Review | Jan Marini’s C-ESTA Serum
I try a lot of skincare these days and I am happy to say that most of the time it works. I think my skin is in better shape now than it was years ago before I knew about skincare.
Saturday, August 5th, 2017
Speaking of comfort in darkness, nothing like an old t-shirt that belonged to someone else. This shirt is probably 20 + years old but it’s one of my favorite shirts because it’s sentimental. It’s a super old Cradle of Filth shirt for the early 90’s. I’m not even much of a COF fan anymore because the new really sucks and kind of made me lose respect for them, and the lead singer is a dick. Aside from that COF was my first concert.
Monday, August 7th, 2017
I finally got around to finishing up my Summer Edit of all my favorite makeup that I was feeling this Summer. You can read all about that here: Bee Beauty | Summer Edit 2017
I think this picture is actually from another day, I just shared it on Instagram on the 7th.
Later that day… I did the makeup for my Dirty Black Summer Makeup Tutorial then went to the gym in full glam after I hit up Sephora and Cane’s. The lesson I learned on this day is not so much that hitting the gym in full goth glam is a bad idea so much as eating Cane’s Chicken Strip Basket first. Phew.
Wednesday, August 9th, 2017
I review more products from L’Oreal that I have been living for. L’Oreal has been killing it lately.
Thursday, August 10th, 2017
Nothing like a #tbt. This is still my favorite eye makeup. This was my Queen Bee Makeup Look V2. It was a recreation I did of my first-ever tutorial I posted on Bee Beauty. you can check it out here: Queen Bee Smoky Eye 2.0 + 1 year of Bee Beauty
Friday, August 11th, 2017
I actually did an MOTD! About fucking time huh? I know. We had a little night out at the bar then grabbed some dinner. I was really wanting to do a Naked Heat inspired look, just what products I have. I LOVE the way this look came out.
Foundation: L’Oreal Infallible Pro Glow Foundation – Classic Ivory.
Review Here: L’oreal Infallible Pro-Glow Foundation Review + Demo
Concealer: L’Oreal Infallible Pro Glow Concealer – Classic Ivory.
Cream Contour: Tarte Tarteist Pro Glow Highlight and Contour Palette – Shade.
Powder: L’Oreal Infallible Pro Glow Powder – Classic Ivory.
Contour: Tarte Tarteist Pro Glow Highlight and Contour Palette – Sculpt.
Blush: Tarte Amazonian Clay Blush – Paarty
Highlight: Tarte Tarteist Pro Glow Highlight and Contour Palette – Lit (I’ll Go Home) + Strobe
Bronzer: Physicians Formula BB Bronze Booster – Light
Eyeshadow: Tarte Tarteist PRO Amazonian Clay Eyeshadow Palette – Classic, Innocent, Whimsey, Smoked, Ethereal, and Glam.
Eyeliner: Kat Von D Beauty Tattoo Liner – Trooper + Urban Decay 24/7 Jean Micheal Basquiat Eyeliner – Anatomy
Mascara: L’Oreal Voluminous Lash Paradise
Lips: Glips Matte Lipstick – Boho Chic
Also, I posted my review of the New Bite Beauty Amuse Bouche Liquefied here: Review + Demo | Bite Beauty Amuse Bouche Liquified Lipstick
Monday, August 14, 2017
I began a new Lust or Bust Series with Kat Von D Beauty. There will be more coming up this week in the series. There is going to be 3 parts of this one with tutorials and reviews thrown in.
Tuesday, August 15, 2017
I was playing around with a new concealer and am hating it! Looks good in the pic but in person, it’s so bad. One of the worst I have ever tried. A review is coming once I finish my KVD Series.
Wednesday, August 16, 2017
I posted of my favorite go to looks, this look also sums up my vibe at the moment.
You can see how to get this warm, grungy smokey eye here: Get the Look | Dirty Black Summer Makeup Tutorial feat. Kat Von D Beauty
Wednesday was pretty busy, aside from posting a tutorial, Ross and I managed to hit the gym again, and then head south to his parents for the night with Pumpkin.
Pumpkin had the best time with her cousin Buddy, They BFFs. He was full of love, Pumpkin wasn’t as into him as he was into her,
Wore out from a day of travel and play.
Normally I would have had another post up on Friday but I didn’ have time to get anything finished up and Friday was a busy day once again. I hosted a birthday party for my roommate and BFF, her boyfriend and my sister. 3 for the price of 1. LOL! So I had a house full.
The rest of the weekend I spent being lazy and hanging out with my family. Visited with my dad, and Aunt who just moved in with him and my “step-mom”. It was a good visit, we talked about spooky stuff, and all the shit I am about to tell you about below.
I have one favorite makeup products I want to chat about and that’s the Urban Decay Jean Michel Basquiat 24/7 Glide on Eye Pencil in Anatomy. I picked this up on clearance at Sephora, but pure luck they had one hanging out on the clearance rack. This color is everything! It’s the color you didn’t know you needed. A vibrant terra cotta. I love it! If you missed out on this one I believe there is one in the Naked Heat Collection almost exactly like it.
My next favorite isn’t a makeup product, It’s a thoughtful gesture.
My roommate Chandra was out Saturday shopping around a local flea market and she happened to pick up a yearbook and flipped through it. Well, the yearbook was mine. Not just that I happened to be in the yearbook, But my actual year book with my name and signatures from my friends. You can see the black one below has my initials on it. These are things I never thought I would see again. They were lost years ago.
Shake It Out – Florence and the Machine
Regrets collect like old friends
Here to relive your darkest moments
I can see no way, I can see no way
And all of the ghouls come out to play
And every demon wants his pound of flesh
But I like to keep some things to myself
I like to keep my issues drawn
It’s always darkest before the dawn
And I’ve been a fool and I’ve been blind
I can never leave the past behind
I can see no way, I can see no way
I’m always dragging that horse around
All of his questions, such a mournful sound
Tonight I’m gonna bury that horse in the ground
So I like to keep my issues drawn
But it’s always darkest before the dawn
And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off
And I am done with my graceless heart
So tonight I’m gonna cut it out and then restart
‘Cause I like to keep my issues drawn
It’s always darkest before the dawn
Needless to say, she bought them and I cried my eyes out. Happy crying to see them again and because she bought them for me. Sad crying because it reminded me of that past life I had that I put behind me. A life that wasn’t a life. I was a ghost. I don’t know if I want to go into the past today cause it’s a long story but it doesn’t feel real anymore to me most the time but these just reminded me that all of it was real but it’s over and you have a new great life just a little haunted by it sometimes. I’ve been thinking a lot about ghosts and the past. But like I said before, I don’t hate thinking about this stuff right now. It feels good to float in a darker space right now.
Look at the Pink Ranger shirt. My god, these are showing my age! Below to the right is my beta club picture, I was just sent the office before that for acting up. LOL! I was so done even then.
Speaking of ghosts, I found a couple pictures of my mom that I don’t even remember being in the yearbooks. Mama’s not a ghost though. She visits in dreams. I have been thinking about her a lot too.
If Only for Tonight – Florence and the Machine
And I had a dream
About my old school
And she was there all pink and gold and glittering
I threw my arms around her legs
Came to weeping
And I heard your voice
As clear as day
And you told me I should concentrate
It was all so strange
And so surreal
That a ghost should be so practical
Only if for a night
And the grass was so green against my new clothes
And I did cartwheels in your honor
Dancing on tiptoes
My own secret ceremonials
Before the service began
In the graveyard doing handstands
Okay, enough serious talk! Have some funnehs and some nice words about the approaching change of season.
This week’s edit got a little deep but it felt good. I’ll see ya’ll back here Wednesday for the next installment of Lust or Bust – Kat Von D Beauty pt2, where we will talk all things complexion.
Oh, did anyone see the eclipse? I napped through it… I didn’t miss much here though, the visibility wasn’t great. Also, fuck lovebugs. Jeez. They are so bad this year. My carport and kitchen doorway are covered!